Happy birthday shaz. I wish you happiness ahead.

24.

Two months more.

I’m getting married.

I should be happy. But then again. I am not.

Legitly. This is the worst birthday ever.

I found myself crying myself to sleep.

And most of the times stare blankly at the thought of nothing.

Maybe you might think i don’t care. But i do. I do care a lot.

I know i have him.

But then again. I have nothing.

24 years of trying to be apart of the family. And in this 24 years, i failed miserably.

Maybe i’m not good enough. Maybe I was not even planned to be born.

Maybe it’s destined every since from the beginning because you don’t even realize i was there until the fifth month.

I passed through my first trimester alone. Trying to prove to you that i want to be in your life.

And all this while, i am just such a failure in your life.

Thank you for the presents and then for taking it back.

Thank you for making me realize i am nothing.

Happy birthday shaz. I wish you happiness ahead.

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Moments (Sayyid Qutb Quote)هناك لحظات في الحياة لا يصمد لها بشر إلا أن يكون مرتكناً إلى الله مَطمئناً إلى حماه.. مهما أوتي من القوة والصلابة والثبات! ففي الحياة لحظات تعصف بهذا كله، فلا يصمد لها إلا المطمئنون بذكر الل! و {أَلَا بِذِكْرِ اللَّهِ تَطْمَئِنُّ الْقُلُوبُ} - سيد قطبThere are moments in life that no human being can undergo, unless they are fully reliant on Allah and certain of His protection, regardless of how much strength, endurance and perseverance has already been given them. For in life there are moments that take all of these things by storm, and only those stay standing who were given surety through the remembrance of Allah, for “only with the remembrance of Allah do hearts find surety.” ~Sayyid QutbOriginally found on: muslema

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Moments (Sayyid Qutb Quote)

هناك لحظات في الحياة لا يصمد لها بشر إلا أن يكون مرتكناً إلى الله مَطمئناً إلى حماه.. مهما أوتي من القوة والصلابة والثبات! ففي الحياة لحظات تعصف بهذا كله، فلا يصمد لها إلا المطمئنون بذكر الل! و {أَلَا بِذِكْرِ اللَّهِ تَطْمَئِنُّ الْقُلُوبُ} - سيد قطب
There are moments in life that no human being can undergo, unless they are fully reliant on Allah and certain of His protection, regardless of how much strength, endurance and perseverance has already been given them. For in life there are moments that take all of these things by storm, and only those stay standing who were given surety through the remembrance of Allah, for “only with the remembrance of Allah do hearts find surety.” ~Sayyid Qutb

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"When a person spends his entire day with no concern but Allah alone, Allah will take care of all his needs and take care of all that is worrying him; He will empty his heart so that it will be filled only with love for Him."
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Ibn Qayyim Al-Jawziyyah

From the collection: IslamicArtDB » Quotes About Tawheed and Ikhlas (Actualizing God’s Oneness in the Heart, Devoting the Heart and Dedicating Life to Allah) (54 items)

Originally found on: enjointhegood-forbidtheevil

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The rage in between hearts.

The day is getting nearer.

Though I still have not clarify my feelings indefinitely about some stuff, but to actually stay insanely inside this course made me think that hey, maybe is the right thing.

But. I just don’t like this feeling of being stuck in the middle.

I just want everyone to be happy.

But ultimately, it is gonna be my day. Hence, for some stuffs, I would want to do it my way. Without anyone telling me what to do or what to feel.

Without everyone feeling left out nor offended because of the decisions made without the consent of their hearts.

I just want everybody to be happy.

With everything. With even my decisions. Because so far, I can say that I’ve mostly followed most of the opinions that was received.

Maybe I should have my two cents being heard too right?

(Admittedly, I know you may not understand what exactly am I talking about. But that’s life. You’ll live to wonder)